22-Jan-2006 to 12-Aug-2020

 Inu had a last visit to the Vet due to her worsen condition.  After that, Inu had a few good resting hours.  Somehow after midnight, Inu's condition went down even more.  I knew Inu couldn't make it through the night already.  I accompanied Inu until 2 am.  I couldn't sleep well whole night, kept thinking I might not see her again the next morning.

When I woke up at 7 am, I couldn't find Inu at her usual sleeping place.  I went searching and surprisingly found her struggling to stay alive in her beloved cage, the cage she slept in from the first day with us.  I carried her out to a more comfortable place, she struggled again and walked slowly in her weakening legs back to her cage again.  Inu continued to struggle to stay alive in the cage.  Finally she got to meet all of our family members, Inu went on to a better world slightly before 8am.  While we were deeply sadden for the leaving of such a nice girl, Thank God you had move on to a more beautiful and better world with no suffering anymore.

Inu, you are such a nice girl, my best daughter, we will love and remember you for the rest of our lives.

Two last photos of Inu walking at the park after visiting Vet, for deep memories...

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Planning... After life...

 Inu had not been eating whole day today.  It felt so good to see this empty can by the end of the day.  It was a tremendous hard work trying to persuade Inu to eat.

We went a couple places today to check out Inu's rest places.  Both have their pros and cons.  Cremation? Plot Burial? Sea Burial? (No, Inu hates water.) Columbarium? Short-term? Long-term? 1 hr. one-way journey for the future visit won't be too bad.  The toughest part was making a decision and what's the meaning of each decision.

On the way home, I was pounded by uncontrollable emotion for the first time since we had the bad news 1 month ago.  Inu had been well taken care her whole life, dined with us, ate our food, lived with us in the house, slept with us in the air-con room most of her life, walked in the park twice a day, travelled with us.  I knew I should feel happy for her to celebrate her life.  On the other hand, I continued to be emotional and had not been myself for the past month.

One more Inu walking at the park recently for memory...