22-Jan-2006 to 12-Aug-2020

 Inu had a last visit to the Vet due to her worsen condition.  After that, Inu had a few good resting hours.  Somehow after midnight, Inu's condition went down even more.  I knew Inu couldn't make it through the night already.  I accompanied Inu until 2 am.  I couldn't sleep well whole night, kept thinking I might not see her again the next morning.

When I woke up at 7 am, I couldn't find Inu at her usual sleeping place.  I went searching and surprisingly found her struggling to stay alive in her beloved cage, the cage she slept in from the first day with us.  I carried her out to a more comfortable place, she struggled again and walked slowly in her weakening legs back to her cage again.  Inu continued to struggle to stay alive in the cage.  Finally she got to meet all of our family members, Inu went on to a better world slightly before 8am.  While we were deeply sadden for the leaving of such a nice girl, Thank God you had move on to a more beautiful and better world with no suffering anymore.

Inu, you are such a nice girl, my best daughter, we will love and remember you for the rest of our lives.

Two last photos of Inu walking at the park after visiting Vet, for deep memories...

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Planning... After life...

 Inu had not been eating whole day today.  It felt so good to see this empty can by the end of the day.  It was a tremendous hard work trying to persuade Inu to eat.

We went a couple places today to check out Inu's rest places.  Both have their pros and cons.  Cremation? Plot Burial? Sea Burial? (No, Inu hates water.) Columbarium? Short-term? Long-term? 1 hr. one-way journey for the future visit won't be too bad.  The toughest part was making a decision and what's the meaning of each decision.

On the way home, I was pounded by uncontrollable emotion for the first time since we had the bad news 1 month ago.  Inu had been well taken care her whole life, dined with us, ate our food, lived with us in the house, slept with us in the air-con room most of her life, walked in the park twice a day, travelled with us.  I knew I should feel happy for her to celebrate her life.  On the other hand, I continued to be emotional and had not been myself for the past month.

One more Inu walking at the park recently for memory...

INU turned 14.5

Time flied, it really did, I just noticed I haven't been visiting this site for 10 years. Yes, thank God every second, INU has been with us for 14.5 years.

 It took a lot of courage from my already turbulent gut to decide to leave a few words here... A week ago on 7-Jul-2020, it's another regular fine day with aging INU walking around sniffing for food. She took a nap around afternoon, woke up and walked straight to her cage, resting inside for a while. When I noticed her walking out of the case, she was already curling up (in pain) and poo'ed a bit on the floor. I tried to walk her to the park. She walked very slowly (in pain) and refused to walk again while reaching the park. I had to carry her in my arms and walk back home under drizzle.

I took her to the regular vet in the evening. Doctor decided to do an ultrasound scan at her abdomen. I was just sitting at a chair, waiting, and waiting, thinking this could just be another infection. Doctor came down, asking me to follow him into the room. Right at that moment, I could only yell from the bottom of my heart, NO, Please, NO...

INU has a huge splenic mass around 8-10 cm x 7-8 cm, sitting on the left abdomen. The mass is just too big and it may have crossed to the right abdomen, pressing stomach and liver. But she had already done an earlier ultrasound scan 9 months ago, how could this ever happen? What did I miss? What did I do wrong?

INU is such a nice and adorable companion who never asked for more than just food. It has been a horrible one week, for us as human beings, of course. INU has no idea what's going on, absolutely good for her. She just know today she's not feeling very well, she wants to eat something better...

I don't care if the mass is benign or malignant, has it spreaded or not, sending INU through operation to remove spleen at this age is just too cruel. With INU's age, I have been expecting this day to come. I thought I was prepared, I thought I could manage my emotion. When it actually came, HELL NO... I am as vulnerable as those who hear the bad news the vert first time.

By now I only noticed I haven't been taking INU's photo for a long time. I woke up earlier than INU the next morning...

Walking her at the park as usual...

Every day is a blessing with INU...

Inu turned 4...

It's another fast year and inu just turned 4 today. We sang birthday song to her while she was half asleep. Inu woke up and sat straight up immediately sensing food probably. So, to reward inu turning 4, she is awarded an extra snack today before going to sleep...

Inu turned 3

Time sure flied and it was another wonderful and memorable year growing up with inu. Our beloved inu just turned 3 today. We sang the birthday song to her at midnight and offered a bonus treat before she went to bed. Sooner or later she will associate the birthday song with treats :).

Inu turned 2

Inu turned 2 today. It’s been a marvelous and wonderful one year and ten months growing up together with Inu. We sang the lovely birthday song for Inu before going to bed at midnight. She must be staring at us and wondering are you going to give me food or not…

Run, Inu, Run...

Inu had a wonderful dog socializing day on the past Sunday. She earned her own first ever food herself by finishing 3rd place in the dog rally run competition. We were so proud of you, not just because you could run fast, most importantly, we were able to work and finish the race together.

Inu was proudly posing in front of her trophy…

Inu's birthday gift

A good friend of ours was so kind to pack a nice birthday gift for Inusan. Inu sure was excited about her birthday gift.

Inu's birthday

Today is inu's 1-year old birthday. We sang the lovely birthday song for inu and she seemed to listen and enjoy quietly. This day has finally come and our beautiful inu is an adult beagle now.

We saw a couple cute beagle puppies at inu's dog socializing day over the past weekend. It vividly reminded us of inu's cute old days. We can only see your cute faces from the old photos now.

Inu can read our mind better day by day. When we are really in bad mood, she hides in her cage or private bushes. When we are preparing her meal, she is laying flat on the ground and waiting patiently. When we want to give her a treat, she is hopping underneath already. One thing that she has not changed is her coprophagia behavior, and that has made me very angry.

Anyway, happy birthday inu, you will have your favorite meal tonight :).